how much of a bitch IS jillian michaels, anyway?

So, I got Jillian Michael's 30 day shred the other day. I'm starting it tomorrow and will report back on the subsequent "shredding" that Ms. Michael's is going to be doing to my risidual baby belly (etcetera). I'm hoping to get a few pounds off before our family pics with her in about 6 wks.

I'm not one of those freaks that's all obsessed about exercising or how I look. Whatever. Do I want to look like I did in high school. Well, YAH. Don't you? But in the last 5 years my body has been put through hell and I'm not gonna go all Nazi spin bitch on it and flip out if I can't lose the weight that I want to. I just have more important things to worry about. And the fact that time is not exactly on my side here, is not helping.

I've been desperately trying to figure out when I will have the time and I'm thinking that if I do the thing (1 hr) and take a lightening speed shower, I might be able to get it done while the kids "nap" (which lately is not a nap, it's a giggle-fest in the girls room that spills over into Jacks room after about an hour. But we'll see how it goes. That is really my only choice b/c I'm NOT doing it after Josh gets home and I'm NOT waking up any earlier than I already do. So we'll see how it goes. It would definitely be nice to lose a little before the pics and a little more before VACATION (!!!). But we all know how well I do with any diet restrictions (esp on my sweets!). NOT WELL. lol. I could go the rest of my life without another chip or fast food or pop (ewwww! :-P). But try to take away my ice cream and be prepared to lose a hand. lol. So we'll see how this all goes.

i promised myself i wouldn't whine

I had every intention of getting on here today and whining like a little baby. But, after looking at these pics of my wonderful family, I've decided against it. So, I'll just be giving some family updates today to keep my mind off of the jealousy/bitterness that is engulfing my brain right now.

I made Sophia an appt. with the opthamologist for March 2. I'm sure everythings fine, but I just want to be sure. We've always joked about her "clumsiness" but it's getting to the point of worry for me recently. She will literally walk right into a wall, head on. Then she looks around like "where'd that come from". And if she looks at the ground, you can bet her face is gonna be planted on it in about a second. And she's not doing it on purpose or to be funny. We used to always compare her to my moms neighbors son b/c she acts exactly like he used to when he was her age. But then my mom just told me yesterday that they just found out he is almost completely blind in one eye (he's 4 now). So I just want to get her checked now, so that we dont let it go to the point where it cant be helped, if there is something wrong. And I just remembered this morning that they wanted to see maria every year b/c of her ROP history. So I think I'll just try to add her on to the appt that day and get it all over with. Also, I picked up my new glasses the other day. They're definitely different. but I actually really like the change.

Jack's doing pretty well. He is having some trouble with reflux, so thats making him a little unhappy. I'm sure if you've had it, you know why. The Dr. said he would give him some zantac, so I guess that's what we'll do, b/c the thickit didnt work.

On another note, I've decided it's time to start trying to lose this baby (X3) weight. I'm really hoping to look good for when we get our family pictures taken in a few months. But I'm sure I wont be done by then.

My moms having a little get-together at her house this weekend for my family to meet Jack. I'm looking forward to that, though I hope ppl arent offended if i ask them to purell before holding him. I'm too much of a germaphobe to just hand him around ya know.

Well, thats pretty much it for this week.